Can I just be honest for a minute....
There is no such thing as "kind of " being a Jesus follower. You either are or you aren't!
When Jesus chose his disciples, He said-....Matthew 4:19-20
"Follow me.....and I will make you fishers of men"
What wonderful promise He has also given to everyone who is a disciple. A promise that HE will make us into who He want's us to become. Slowly, carefully, lovingly molding us and walking with us all the while.