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true confessions of a preachers wife

Self analysis,

 well right off the bat, let me share with you the style of font I am using is quicksand 😆

I hate to admit this,  I guess I have become a glass half full kind of gal.   I am not sure I have always been, or if it has just become my default mind set.

I am still not even sure how I  became a preaches wife, it wasn't my plan.  There are a lot of things I am just not sure about.....

I started out with gusto.  Listening to everyone's problems,  excited to teach God's Word.....

and  now, now I am 61  (and just like I didn't know how I became a preachers wife, I don't know how or when I have become 61).

There are those who tell me 61 isn't old.   It is beginning to feel old.   I have listened to thousands tell me their problems, and thousands tell me my problems....

I wrestle with God daily, unlike Jacob who wrestled for one night,  hey, did you know Jackie is the female equivalent the name Jacob,  hmmmmm?    

excuse my wandering mind.....

back to wrestling, 

Every day I get up and wrestle with God.  My struggles are many:

 will I be joyful?
Will I be content with what God is doing in my life?  Will I lean on Him when problems come up?  Will I choose to trust Him for our daily provision and even our provision  for the future?

Can I trust Him to watch over our family?  Can I listen to one more person tell me all their problems?

and so are some of my fleshly  daily struggles.

Now let me tell you about my amazing God.

God has taken 2 very small town people and moved us to a very big full grown city.

We are not amazing in anyway.  But we  have a very amazing God.  

He has and is teaching me so many truths:  

Like it's really not about me at all.   It's about all the people who surround us and how they need a Savior who will take the time to listen to every concern, real or perceived.  

How He loves them and gave his life for them, so they can have eternal hope and even a life that makes sense down here on earth.

 He  will and does pick me up every time, and dusts me off and whispers sweet love words in my ear.

He tells me it is worth all the pain and all the disappointments and how in the end the joys totally outweigh the hurts.

How I need to keep living for Him because it matters in so many ways.

He cheers me on, tho sometimes the race seems so very long and tiring , "don't quit now, the end is in sight......YOU'VE GOT THIS, I AM RIGHT HERE WITH YOU." 

so listen here,

don't quit.  Take a break if you must, but then get up and get back in that race....

don't give up......

trust Him

don't forget to enjoy the many blessings He gives you

let Him love you

listen to Him and obey Him when He speaks to your spirit


I love you~ jackie


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